The Infinite Game of Ultimate Reality
A Full Moon Transmission for You
The more I sit with people in divination space, the more I notice something interesting. There are several…levels, if you will, when it comes to the nature of the messages I receive in this space. I’ve referenced these levels unofficially as ‘little divs’ and ‘big divs’.
I make this distinction not to describe the quality of the messages being received, but rather the direction and impact of the message. Little divs are more of a ‘one-way street’ in that the information being transmitted is specific to the individual person receiving this information. The spirits are tending to their personal concerns and questions and providing answers that are pertinent and important.
Big divs are when information comes through that is relevant to more than one person. They often serve a collective function vs a personal one. I notice that this is usually either because the person I’m sitting with is actively invested in their own inner work and spiritual growth and therefore has more access to the manifold dimensions of consciousness. That, or they might be dedicated to helping others in these pursuits.
The difference is that their inquiries are usually concerned with a level of healing, tending, or responsibility that extends beyond themselves. In these divinations, if their answers are relevant to others, then the beings will spit out a hot teaching. I feel exceptionally blessed when these teachings come through. Here is one such transmission that recently arrived.
I have made edits and adjustments to this message to protect the identity and confidential information of the person who received this teaching.
In the beginning there are seed codes.
These codes are planted in the soul’s temple, the Akash. The living library of all the wisdom you have accrued over your many lifetimes alive. The blueprints you walk with.
You are knocking at the doors of this temple. You wish to know the depth and extent of your soul wisdom, and how to manifest that into your now.
Purpose as a concept is so small when you think of the many threads that construct the soul’s fabric. Purpose feels like a singular thread, a point on the map, versus the big picture, the grand map, of the constellations that you contain.
You are searching for your greatness, not from an ego place, but from the urging of your soul to know itself and its capacity, what it came here to bear and bring forth. You have a deep desire to know the manifest reality of God. What is holy? And to bring forth what is holy into the matrix of reality.
The mind is not productive here.
This is not the disembodied masculine spirituality of “Let me meditate in a monastery on a mountain all day.” This is not about transcending anything. This is the weaving of the holy into the muck of the mundane. The true test of any awakened individual is to do that. It’s easy to look for God in the church, in the temple, in what is beautiful and good. Far, far more complex to find it in the places where we are disgusted by the ugliness.
The access point of any thread, any of your inherited or innate wisdom into embodied soul presence, is through the awakened heart.
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You have been anointed.
You have brought yourself to the place where now you are being asked to do this – to bring an awakened heart into your everyday.
This is a journey that is many, many, many lifetimes long. But those who choose this are supplicants; supplicants who sit at the doors of the soul.
So the question then becomes: What is needed to further this path in this lifetime?
Because you are not someone who entertains the distractions, the dross. You are wanting to know: What is the scalpel that will purify your inner eye?
An awakened heart is what purifies the ecology of the soul.
Your job now is to see through the heart. See everything through the the eye of the heart, and to turn that eye towards your whole life. Anyone or anything who crosses your path: allow this eye to be both the purifying flame and the filter.
The purifying flame is what goes out, the filter is what comes in.
When you do this you will not accelerate but rather enhance your journey towards this place of awakening.
Drop the idea of moving towards anything.
Every moment is the destination. Let the moment become the field that permeates your life, rather than the end point.
That's when you will notice a rapid metabolizing of your karma and a relaxation into what is you.
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What the ancestors want you to understand is when we get back to a certain point in our healing process, we are cleaning the root of everything. We are no longer polishing our individual stones, we are polishing The Stone.
The overflowing of one’s dharma will inevitably offer itself back to all of humanity.
Now you must take something deeply precious to you, and offer it back. You will know what this is. Whatever is most precious to you. It could be an item, such as the blanket you had as a baby. But more than likely it is an idea or belief that holds you in its grip.
This offering of what is most precious to you recognizes an essential law: that all will be offered back at the end.
Your life is in devotion to that which is precious in everything.
Ask not What can I have but rather What can I give?
You must find this precious thing and bury it somewhere sacred in the earth. Do not mark its grave. Let it return to the source. Offer your desire, your ultimate preciousness, your blessings. Offer your prayers for your soul and for the soul of all of humanity. You are no longer praying a singular prayer. So let this prayer reflect the prayer that you hold for all humans as well as your own. Let it reflect the prayer of the Buddha.
Then you will bury this precious thing – but only when you have worked your prayer and let it work you, when you feel complete in your prayer, and when you feel complete in your surrender.
At some point in the awakening path, you will offer your own identity back to the greater cosmic compassion field, letting go of the identity you carry.
Find yourself in everyone.
This is a vow you will make again and again and again.
The enlightenment path is so big, so big. We must remember the littleness we are, and also how that too is connected, is also an essential fractal reflection of the bigness.
Even those days when it feels like our soulful actions are a single drop in the bucket – that is a worthy drop. We must remember the preciousness of every drop, not –
How many buckets can I fill?
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You are playing with immeasurable expanses and balances of time and space and soul. This flipping of your singular identity as a seeker is also the releasing of a gripping definition – which is also a destination, a containment.
This identity defines all possibilities within your reality.
Humanness will always feel too small for what is. Because that's a human way of seeing ultimate reality.
And you are trying to get to an ultimate reality that is in and around and outside everything you already are.
Seeking something is not actually a reaching, but rather a releasing. A surrender. This is an act of prostration before the almighty goddess of the mystery.
But what does it mean to get down to that place of such deep spiritual annihilation?
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At the heart of everything is a paradox.
And so inside of the place you're trying to get to is the place you already are, and inside of the place you are is the place you're trying to get to. How does one hold the tension of the unfolding now? The becoming?
Abandon any idea of perfection, of concrete endings, beginnings, destinations, arrivals. Here is a game for you to play: remove the word “get” from your language. What happens to reality when you stop reaching?
This is the fun shit.
Play with the paradox. There is something there for you. Throw all your best laid plans out the window. Subvert your own preciousness. Get inside the question. Give yourself a wedgie with your own soul underwear. Embrace the trickster mindset. Set down the idea of going or getting anywhere.
Make your ritual the giving away of your most sacred desire: knowing the next step on the path. This is your purge. Compost what you crave. Find the sensei pose where you can rest for a thousand years in the mystery, even if a part of you is screaming loudly.
You are being emptied so you can be filled completely.
Consciousness is always breathing.
Awareness is not stable in the way we imagine. There is no center because the center is always moving and dancing and shifting. The center expands and contracts. To be inside of this dance fully is to walk the middle path of enlightenment.
Think of the center as a fulcrum, not a median. Not a middle. Not a destination.
Rather a lever. Balance is a leveling.
Because life is messy. The spiritual path is messy. There needs to be the room for your not knowing as much as your knowing. There needs to be a place for your complete utter humanness as well as your illumination, because otherwise you're actually missing the whole point of holding the absolute all.
And this is where, again, the paradox is also present.
The pursuit of a destination actually implies a rejection of its opposite, and unfortunately, you can't do that. A level of fixation on an end destination has to be counterbalanced otherwise it risks going into its own extreme, subverting itself, which isn't going to be helpful.
This is the level at which most people kind of give up, which means that they start to realize that consciousness is a pretty trippy game that does not follow the rules we were taught.
A lot of us need to have our truth turned inside out. If you're wanting to walk the path, go swim in the ocean instead. Upend the concepts creating rigidity in your process.
The true middle path acknowledges, accepts, considers, and embraces the multitudes of expression inside of The Truth. If you have it figured out, then you're not living fully into the infinite reality, the ultimate paradox of consciousness.
Resist nothing.
Use it all.
Replace the idea of your awakened destination with this mantra:
I'm an infinite game player, and I am living the game, baby.
It's so healing to have you call this out. Letting my mind spin into the paradoxes and polarities of this existence can result in feeling profoundly alone in a room full of people I deeply care about. Subvert my preciousness? Amen. Time to grab a controller, boot up the console and take this avatar for another spin.
Beautifully written! Thank you so much for writing this. I resonates deeply and it's also something that I've pondering on recently. The paradox is the key to higher understanding and just be in the moment, nowehere to go, nothing to do, just be.